Brianna

I don't think I tell my sister enough how much of a hero she is to me. I love her and look up to her so much. When I found out I had PCOS she was the only one I could talk to. I tell her everything. She is the strongest and sweetest person I know. We fought as kids and grown to be friends. I love her and wish her the best of luck on her pregnancy. I know she will be the best mother to her child.

This week has been very strange

So it started with my husband being home Monday and Tuesday. He left Wednesday and for the first time I didn't cry. Then Thursday I went to a new OB went really good found out some new things and I really liked him. Now on to Friday first I have to tell you, on Monday I started facebook messaging my cousin on my dads side Ricky I have never met him and didn't even know of him till I asked my mom, Friday we talked on the phone and to my suprise he feels the same way about Dick and Lola (my fathers dad and step mom) as I do. He has also been looking up the family just like I have. I learned some things that I never knew and I'm glad I talked to him. Cory and I have decided that we are going to start trying to get pregnant. I booked a bus ticket to OK to see my sister in law and her kids. Its been a very good week but it has also been kinda strange. I'm going to the doctor on Monday to get my ingrown toe nails fixed and I'm not even the scared because its just three little needles and then no pain ever again. Even though I'm super afraid of needles I can do this. I know my life isn't perfect but its alot better then it could of been. Thinking and talking about my dad today wasn't hard at all I feel like I'm finally coming to peace about him not being in my life. I think my life would be a lot different if he lived. I'm glad I have my husband for support even if he can't be here all the time. I know I'm loved and no matter what I do or say I will always have people who care about me and want me to be happy. So thats what I'm going to do. I'm just going to be happy! :)